Thursday, July 21, 2011

My Son Is Growing So Fast

As some of you may have noticed I haven't posted anything for awhile.
Honestly, I have been a lazy bum for the past week if not more.

My son Milo is 3 months old today!  I can not believe how big he's already gotten.  You're whole life you hear parents talk about it and I never had to think about it nor care until I had Milo.  It is 100.10% true!  It was just yesterday I was laying with a needle in my back, David holding my hand and all the nurses telling me to push and it was the day before yesterday I found out I was pregnant.  I can't help but to take pictures all the time of him and write all the new things he's doing down in his baby book.  I feel like tomorrow I'm going to wake up and he's going to be going to his first day of school and then the day after that off to college and/or starting his own family.  I know I'm getting really ahead of myself but just these 3 little months have gone so fast and he's always growing and won't ever stop...  Ah!  It makes me so happy but yet breaks my heart!!!  I'm so affraid I'm going to blink and miss something special.
I already miss how small he use to be and seeing him discover voices, faces, etc. 
David and I were talking the other night and I mentioned how I want another baby...  Yes I thought it, I said it...  I want another baby! (Miss I Never Want To Go Through That EVER Again!  One Is Enough.)
But I'm not ready to move on to the next step.  I still want to be in the new baby/new Mommy stage and I feel like it's already over.

For my family members, just know that it's not set in stone.
David and I are NOT trying to get pregnant again.  I have a birthcontrol that's going to last me for 5 years and AFTER that...  David and I will go from there.
That's the plan for now anyways.

On a lighter note...

I've had the idea of starting a cooking/recipe blog.
I'm not 100% sure I want to do it or not... But, it's been a thought.
I'm guessing I'll probably end up doing it but I'm just being lazy this week.
I already have some really good ideas but another thing that's holding me back is that I'm tight on money at the moment and probably will be for another month or so... I hope that's all anyways. If I start a recipe blog then I want to take pictures of what I'm posting about. Who likes to cook something and not know what it's suppose to look like? Not me. I like to know what I'm making is turning out to be what it's suppose to be.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

I started working on my first quilt.

Like I had mentioned in an earlier post, I have cut squares out to start making a Baby Quilt for my son.  This is the first quilt I have ever tried to make and last night I finally started making rows with my squares.
I am finished with all the rows and now I have to sew the rows together. 
I am so proud of myself, I haven't messed up once yet!  (knock on wood!)  I'm sure I'll mess up when it comes to the trim.
Here are some photos I took that track my progress.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Oh, no! I've lost my motivation!

I recently became a new mother to a beautiful son and I've also recently decided that I'd start quilting. I got so excited because I think it would be very special that my first quilt I would ever make would be for my new baby!

I went out and spent over $100.00 on supplies including fabric and I figured out which pattern I would put together. I accomplished cutting all of my squares out and I got my sewing mechine out and set it up on my craft desk. I then crawed under my desk to plug in the mechine and realized as the moment was to late that I had no plug space!

I started thinking up ways to solve my problem and the only thing I can remotely come up with is to set my sewing mechine up on my living room coffee table.
My coffee table I'm roughly guessing is 3.5x3.5 feet wide and probably 2 feet high with a full glass center. If you can imagen my table then you're probably thinking like I am and know that's not an idealic place to spend only Lord knows how much time making this quilt that I'm so determend to make.  Goodness being hunched over is going to kill my neck, back and shoulders and I'm worried about the glass on the table.  Sewing mechines rattle and being on glass...  Seems like a very bad idea to me.

Needless to say, ever since since has happened (about 1-2 weeks ago) I have lost all motivation to complete my mission.

How can I give up on it though?
I want to learn how to quilt, it'll be my babies first quilt, and I would love to try and make this a new income for my little family.

That being said I'll explain why.

Ever since I was about 8-9 months pergnant I haven't worked. My baby is now 11 weeks old.
My boyfriend and I decided once our son is 6 months old I'll go back to work since that is the time I want to stop breast feeding him, but... I've quickly come to love the realitization of being a Home Maker, plus I really don't like the idea of going back to work and not truely being the one to raise my son. I know there are tons of parents that have to put their child/children in Daycare and there's nothing wrong with that but if I can help it I want to avoid that for my child. I hate the thought of being away from my sweet boy for 28-35 hours a week for horrible pay. It is not worth it to me and like I said before, I don't want someone else raising my child. So I figured I could start making baby quilts with matching baby throw pillows to sell online to help my boyfriend with our household income. I think it's an amazing idea that I truely believe can work. I've made out a business plan and everything.

So I really need to find some sort of super duper mojo power to get myself motivated again, I can't just give up on this idea that I've had for quite sometime now. I can't give up on the hope that I can stay home and be a Home Maker for my family.

(But, I'm broke...)